Life in Transfiguration
Father Larry spoke in the Homily on Sunday about “Transfiguration” .. what does that mean for us today? God took 3 of his disciples and brought them up to the mountain-top to show them a glimpse of what “Heaven” is, the glory of god shining before them.. God wanted to give them a feel for what GLORY is.. The disciples said, we should stay here, build 3 tents and be in this glory.. but God said to them “NO” .. You need to go back down off the mountain and go through life to get to this glorious place..
How that pertains to life today, is we know what the GLORY of God can do for us, if we follow.. we hear and have faith in what Peter, James and John saw.. the glory of god, what heaven is like, what the peace of being at the top of the mountain can do for us.
God’s word was “you need to come down from the mountain”.. go through the trenches of life, so that you can be at the top of the mountain and be in gods glory.
When I heard this, I wondered how it pertained to my life.. have I ever been a the top of the mountain to see what it could be like? I think I have been maybe a few feet from the bottom.. but I spent most of my time “trenching” through life trying to find my way. The journey that I have been on seems awfully far from the top.. there are days I don’t want to go to the mountain.. Because I think to myself “how can God create such work for me?” .. if this is the trenches, what is hell? I don’t want to know.
I imagine that being on the mountain top is the reward for the hard work we do to get closer to god.. and in the harder times you wonder if you can actually do it. I am faced against that challenge everyday – “can I do this?” “How much more do I have to fight to prove I am worth Gods glory of having some peace?” ….. there is a part of me that asks God for only one day, maybe a part of the mountain, not the top, but maybe 10 feet up, on a ledge where I can overlook something to give me more hope to go forward.
This Homily really hit me in more ways than one.. a part of me wants to keep fighting for that mountain-top.. and the other part of me wonders if I have any more “trenches” left in me. When is enough, enough?
Transfiguration I think is a sign of courage.. to come off that mountain top…. but the hard part is, what if you have no idea what it looks like? That is where “faith” comes in.. you have to vision what it’s like.. have faith in what it’s like.. and most of all – have faith in GODS word.
Everyday I wake up and I fight for even the SMALLEST glimpse of the mountain top through my healing.. It’s been a hard trench that is for sure, and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t wonder, why my trench is VERY high and VERY tiresome.. I just want a SMALL glimpse to give me hope.. so I continue to put my love and faith in God.. everyday.