The past couple of weeks I have been experiencing very strong, vivid dreams and memories of my past when I was a little child, and it's been incredibly hard to sit with these memories that have come to me in my sleep. I have written before about "crying wake up's" that I experience once in… Continue reading awaken memories
I have spent a lifetime hiding behind "true emotions" and putting up walls of okay-ness. I have spent more time in my life putting on a fake front and swallowing the true emotions of how I really feel just to protect others around me. I ask myself - What am I protecting them from? that… Continue reading the powering in just being
One of my favorite things to do before bed is to pick a prayer from the bible and find meaning in it that pertains to my healing, and how I can grow and move through it with more strength. Tonight, as I snuggled up in bed under the blankets, I picked up the "gather book"… Continue reading thoughts before bed . . .
"You can talk about anything". Those 5 words are the words that my therapist reminds me of almost on a daily basis - through connection and support. I have come to love those 5 words! I have come to accept those 5 words, I sometimes look forward to those 5 words, and better yet, I have… Continue reading “you can talk about anything”
When I am dealing with too much than I can handle, I turn to old habits like building walls; emotional walls, like electric fences and barbwire's! Those walls served a great purpose in the past. It kept people out, and kept me from leaning in. It kept people at bay from me, and kept my emotions… Continue reading the walls that once provided . . .