five minute friday {whisper}

e0f2356409673b9f8dcb6e396a475e56Welcome to Five Minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing.

No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours. Set the timer and write away! Stop at the 5 minute mark no matter where you are!

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {Whisper}

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The word Whisper resonates with me this week! “hope” is the word that whispers loudly in my ears and my soul this week.. hope is the anchor to all the hardness that I have been going through, and when we have more hope, it gives us more strength.

In session yesterday I opened up about something big and I wrote about it, and I am still reeling from the goodness and hope that this openness brought me. Everyday I am holding more and more hope that by being open and listening to the hope inside, it brings me more strength to keep on going, keep on fighting the fight!

I think sometimes the world is so loud that we never truly sit and listen to what God is telling us. I believe God is fighting for our attention in the midst of our hardness. We sometimes become so involved in life and in trying to solve our own troubles, that we don’t sit and really listen to the whisper of God’s wisdom.

That is what happened to me this week. I sat and really paid attention to the quietness, and in that quietness I heard hope, an in that hope I felt strength, and in that strength I was able to lean on support, and the support, care and love that I have circles back around to the hope!

I have begun something new. Every Saturday morning, I allow myself 2 hours of just sitting on the couch with a book, or even my laptop to read. I give myself those 2 hours in the quiet morning just for me, and I realized something in that. We pray to God and make time to say what we need to him right? what about God speaking to us? Do we ever think that maybe God wants us to sit still in life and hear what he has to say to us? That is what my Saturday mornings have become.

Whether it be through the reading I am doing, or the writing I am engaged in, I always find God speaking to me in some form. That is what this week was for me. I really paid attention to what God was praying to me. I think God prays to US too, we just need to really believe in that.

So, this week sparks hope inside of me. I have more hope after this great week in session and really being open about what this hardness has been about. I found hope in the whisper in between the busyness of life and I paid attention to it enough to embrace it, and really lean into that.

If you were to take time out during the week, what would you hear? take some time to really listen, because you never know what the whispers of life is trying to tell you.

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five minute friday {mess}

278024_441388179215763_827778536_o Welcome to Five Minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing.

No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours. Set the timer and write away! Stop at the 5 minute mark no matter where you are!

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {MESS}

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When I saw that the Five minute Friday word was MESS, the first thing that came to my mind was a quote by a writer name Jeff Goins and that quote is:

change always happens when you come down from the clouds & deal with the messiness of life“.

That is such a strong and true quote!

Right now I am struggling with connection, and maybe in order to get reconnected to self and those around me, I need to dive right into the messiness of what is causing me disconnection.

Maybe the answer is found in sitting right in the middle of the mess instead of trying to run from it or hide from the disconnection that has found me. Maybe it’s here for a reason.

Sometimes I just want to isolate into a small ball and just wait for the storm of disconnection to pass – but maybe its not about getting small, maybe I can get big in disconnection.

When you run from a dog, it’s first instinct is to chase you because your showing fear and running from something, but if you slow down, breathe, and walk along side of the feelings that are here –  the dog is more likely to walk along side of you instead of chasing you.

I think connection is the same thing! We fight against our feelings and emotions so much that it chases us down and wears us thin to the point of “becoming” the disconnection instead of working with it and understanding it.

I think that is what the past week has been for me. I am trying so hard to NOT be disconnected that I am not paying attention to what is causing me to feel disconnected. I am allowing the disconnection to disconnect me.

So, I am going to hold this quote today and come down from the clouds of isolation and disconnection and face what is here, and why its here, and maybe instead of being chased by the dog, I can walk along side of my disconnection giving it less power over me, so that I can connect back to self and those around me who love and care for me.

Its hard when the weight of the past and the old messages tell me “you need to run and hide“… but a part of this process is about changing those messages and saying “NO, I am not going to isolate and get small, I am going to get big right in the middle of the mess!”

My therapist and I work incredibly hard on connection – connection has been the CORE of our work in therapy, and at the same time, there are times when I struggle and become disconnected, but I think if I really start to understand where the disconnection comes from, than maybe the next time this happens, I can breathe and walk through it knowing that the fight back is about being IN it, and not trying to run away or out of it.

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five minute friday {fall}

fall-down-seven-times-get-up-eightWelcome to five minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt every Friday and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing.

Join other bloggers in this fun writing game to connect with others.

No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours. Connect with other bloggers and share the same words of encouragement!

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {Fall}

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I LOVE this quote “Fall down seven times get up eight“. This quote holds so much truth to my healing in the past 6 years.

The very first thing that I thought of when I saw the Five Minute Friday word was this video by “3 Doors Down” called “Away from the Sun”

In the video this kid keeps falling down the mountain while rocks are thrown at him, while people make fun of him, while he keeps losing his grip and falls time and time again, but he always gets up and tries again.

I believe falling is a part of healing. I believe you can’t experience one thing without the other. You can’t experience light if you haven’t seen the dark. You can’t know what it’s like to get up, if you have never been down. You can’t tend to a wound if you don’t feel the pain to heal it.

My healing journey has been so much about getting up after falling, and sometimes falling is where we need to be to experience the healing in standing up. I think the “falling” part is a part of the empowerment in us. When we are down, we are at our strongest, because that is what gets us back up – our strength.

Take a look at this video, it reminds me so much of my life and of my healing journey .. I hope it touches you just as much. THis video brings me to tears EVERY TIME.. but it’s healing, because in the end, he reaches the TOP .. and that is getting up after falling and finding empowerment!

AWAY FROM THE SUN – VIDEO 

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five minute friday {friends}

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Welcome to Five Minute Friday .. this week’s Five Minute Friday word hit way too close for home for me (painfully). The word is “what mama did” and I simply dont choose to write about that, so I went back and chose a 5 minute friday word from the list last year that I did not do, so today I chose {Friends}

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One of the things my therapist tells me all the time is “you have chosen wonderful people in your life“. It’s true, I have a great group of friends that I chose in my life that are safe, supporting, and understanding.

Everyone of my friends that I hold in my life have a different purpose and hold something special and unique about them.

My closest dearest friend is Tracy. Tracy is a truly beautiful friend inside and out. She is fun, funny, outgoing, and so fun to talk with.

Tracy is a licensee professional therapist and she has a beautiful way of helping people to heal. She may not be my therapist, but she has really helped me along side of my healing and my therapist to move me through many hard times.

She was one of the first people I got close to down here in Georgia when I first moved down here 8 years ago. She is understanding, caring, giving, and one of the few who truly know my story inside and out. I love you Tracy, and you know I don’t just give out my love to just anyone.

I have a trust issues, so those who are in my life as my friends I have really put trust in, and they are good honest wonderful people.

I have different types of friends. I have my church friends who walk along with me in my faith. Friends that I meet in church in the faith and share that wonderful bond that the church holds.

I have the friends who I grew up with who know me inside and out. I have girlfriends that I love to go shopping with and get my nails done with. Then there are the friends who offer their ears and know my heart and support me through the good, bad, sad, and the joy.

I think friends are so important to have, and I am SO incredibly blessed to have those friends in my life that I hold near and dear to my heart. Thank you for being the ears, the arms, and the voice in my life.

Thank you for being my friend.

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Make sure to check out yesterday’s blog writing – [The Grace in Letting Go]

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