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Today’s Five minute Friday word is “Focus”
I was a photographer for 15 years, and when I saw the word today was focus, I was drawn to the reason why I hid behind the camera for so long.
I spent years behind a camera focusing in on other people’s lives and making their dreams come true. I think a part of me wanted to do for others what was not done for me.
I loved the art of it; making time stand still for memories that would be there for a lifetime.
The memories I had in my life were far from picture worthy, or memory making – but to create that for others was a dream of mine since I was as early as 6 years old.
When I got my first real camera as a child, I would take photos of cabbage patch kids on a swing. I created these wonderful moments to capture on film. I built happiness to capture, and it made me happy inside to see life one way, because my life was another.
Later on in life I took that into my adult life and decided to be a photographer. I specialized in family portraits and children portraits.
Something about focusing in on the beauty of a family just helped me to move through what I didn’t have. I hid behind a camera, pushing away what I couldn’t focus on myself.
I gave up my business 3 years ago to focus more on MY LIFE and MY HEALING. I miss it, I truly miss holding the camera in my hand and focusing on the beauty of life, and helping others to create memories they could remember forever.
The more and more I am finding peace in my healing and moving through this journey, the more I am focusing in on the things I love. I want to pick up the camera again someday, and I wonder what it would be like to go back behind the lens and to capture lives knowing that I don’t have to hide behind it, but enjoy it.