• Another Door Open

    October 7, 2017KarenBeth

    For years now, I have been in and out of the process of writing my book. I was so close to making it happen a couple of years ago; even got myself a publisher. The moment I began writing, I got triggered and began struggling to move through the process of writing about the past. Recalling memories from my past were too painful to write about, I thought I was ready with already years of work with my therapist talking about my past – but something was missing and I wasn’t ready yet. I decided to put it aside and…

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  • 3 DAYS – LIFE HAPPENS

    October 4, 2017KarenBeth

    The one thing I told myself when I agreed to do this “31 days of writing” was not to be hard on myself if I missed a day of writing, because “life happens!” life gets in the way of time we have to ourselves sometimes. Life gets in the way of our thoughts, and our means to have a moment to ourselves, and that’s what happened to me yesterday. I actually had a very vulnerable session yesterday in therapy! I talked about some things that were hard and allowed myself to sit with my emotions, and sometimes when that happens,…

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  • 31 Days of Finding My Voice (Day 2)- Rejection

    October 2, 2017KarenBeth

    I wasn’t sure I was going to write about this or not, but this 31 days of “Finding My Voice” is about just that – speaking and writing about the things I wouldn’t usually use my voice to speak. What could be harder than rejection? Telling others you were rejected! It’s that feeling of embarrassment and shame. It’s allowing others to see that you were not accepted, or chosen – like putting a spotlight on something people possibly can’t see and allowing them to see it. Like some of you know, I applied to go on a retreat, and you…

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  • 31 Days of Finding My Voice {Day 1} – The Challenge

    October 1, 2017KarenBeth

    It’s another year of the October “31 Days Writing Challenge” and I have decided to take the plunge! I have to admit. I was really hesitant I have to admit, I was really hesitant over whether I was going to do it again this year, its not easy writing every day for 31 days. Heck I have a hard enough time writing once a month! but I am up to the challenge, because this journey I am on, has always been about taking chances, pushing through, and mostly finding my voice. This 31 days challenge of “Finding my Voice” is…

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  • awaken memories

    September 17, 2017KarenBeth

    The past couple of weeks I have been experiencing very strong, vivid dreams and memories of my past when I was a little child, and it’s been incredibly hard to sit with these memories that have come to me in my sleep. I have written before about “crying wake up’s” that I experience once in a while – dreaming and then waking up crying out of my sleep. Well, its happening again only now it’s happening along with very vivid and strong memories of my past. The moment I wake up with a dream like this, I try and grab…

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  • Grace found in Rigidity

    August 7, 2017KarenBeth

    Since I was as little as five years old, I have been stuck in the mindset of how to survive; trapped in the routines of how to move through each day feeling safe under fear. Even as the adult, the mom, and the wife I am today, I am continually living behind the rigidity of my day-to-day to keep myself safe from anything that could harm me. But when does rigidity get in the way of grace? When does the safety of rigidity as I know it, get in the way of living, and being the person who God created…

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  • breaking thru the waves of therapy

    July 27, 2017KarenBeth

    A lot of people have asked me how I have managed to move through the hardest part of therapy to where I am today 10 years later? My answer has always been “It’s almost like pushing past the hardest parts of the waves in the ocean – to the other side where the calm waters are. I have read so many blogs written by people who are in therapy who struggle with the process of healing, and struggle with feeling worse than actually feeling better! when I see that, I smile and say “yes, but that is normal, and it…

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  • healing me forward

    July 23, 2017KarenBeth

    The past couple of months have been filled with movement and healing in ways that I have not felt healing and movement before in all the 10+ years I have been in therapy with my therapist. Friday in session, my therapist and I were reflecting just how much the past couple of months have changed so much for me in the way of “healing”, “understanding”, and more so trusting the “young part” in me to take bigger steps on this journey I have been on for over 10 years now. Healing is not a destination or a place to arrive.…

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  • This 10 Year Journey

    April 17, 2017KarenBeth

    10 years ago I took a step into the beginning of my healing journey – the beginning of finding my voice, the beginning to unfolding the many little pieces of pain and secrets I held onto since I was as little as 5 years old. 10 years ago I took a step into the beginning of finding what safe connection was – what a safe person to talk to was about, and realizing just how important my truth was, and still is. This journey has been about unfolding every piece of a secret kept for years that I held onto…

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