blessed and connected

November 27, 2013Karen Courcy

783acc59e509c0400ed176be5a5785faThis morning I took a seat under the window, had my coffee in hand, played some soothing music and just took a good hour to be in the “here and now”.

Sometimes I do this in the morning to really reflect, think and sort things out in my mind. I don’t have time to do this often but when I do I notice it makes more room for goodness in the day.

The past 2 days have been about focusing and connecting to the here and now, and I have to say it has been 2 of the best days I have had in a very long time.

The past 2 days in session with my therapist have been the best 2 days we have had in a very long time.

The past 2 days have been about really being in session and paying attention to “right here and right now”. Not thinking ahead, not thinking behind, but really connecting to now, talking about feelings in the now, and really accepting what is in front of me, and I have to say, it’s the best I have felt in session all year.

We have a couple of days off of therapy for the Thanksgiving Break and my therapist and I both said “man, I wish this really good connection and newness didn’t come right before break” .. but you know what? a good connection can hold no matter how long.

We will stay connected over the break and trust that the good work we have done together in the past 2 days will be here Monday, because that is what good connection is.

I don’t know what changed in the past couple of days, but I just made a conscious effort to really be present in this very moment and it has allowed me to really be open and connected. if I allow myself to find connection in the “here and now” it also allows me to heal what is behind me, and not fear what is in front of me and this week it has really worked.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and even though I have had a very hard year, I am thankful and blessed that those moments that were hard, made me stronger each day.

Everyone who knows me knows how important “Church” is to me. I haven’t been to church since Easter, that is how hard the year was with isolating myself from all the things I love, and going back to church has been the most heart-breaking challenge for me.

I miss it so VERY VERY much. My faith has always been the light to the path ahead of me. At one point Deacon Bill called me “a juggernaut of faith” in front of the whole congregation when I became Catholic. He said “when you walk in the room, everyone can see he light and love of God around you”.

I miss being in the presence of my faith and I have been trying so hard to go back, but every time I try, something holds me back.

Well tonight I am going to confession. I am catholic and in order to accept communion I have to go to confession, and I have to admit, confession to me is another form of healing. it’s a way to be in the here and now with opening yourself to be seen.

My hope is that this Sunday I will walk back into Church and embrace the very thing that I felt the most connected to. It will be another huge step towards moving out of the isolation I have been in this whole year.

It all begins with ONE step!

So on this Thanksgiving I am blessed for the hard and the good. I am blessed for the challenges that made me stronger and close to those who I love and love me back.

I hope everyone has a BLESSED Thanksgiving and allow yourself to heal in the moment of right here and right now.

I am blessed for all those who are on this wonderful path with me.



  • ziggy40

    November 27, 2013 at 12:45 PM

    Dear Karen,
    Thank you for such an inspiring post. I’m struggling being, ‘accepting’ , being in the here and now. I tried this morning to be more accepting of ‘what’s in front of me.’ I also hold god as a guide in my life. As I’m from, ‘down under’, we don’t celebrate , ‘thanks giving’ I hope you can connect again with your church, I love your honesty in writing! Sending you positive ‘BLESSING’ over that holiday. I do however feel the challenges of the past year, have allowed me to grow and do some healing. I find as I am challenged, there’s a lesson, an opportunity for learning to be more resilient. Thank you for allowing me, to travel on this healing path, I feel honored and blessed by you, I often identify with many things you share. Have a wonderful holiday celebration…lol
    love Ziggy

    1. KarenBeth

      November 27, 2013 at 12:57 PM

      thank you Ziggy … that means a lot, and I hope that you too can find that connection of accepting. It will come. I just realized the other day that I can’t keep peddling over and over in the same hardness! it’s time to peddle out, and when I allow myself to be in the here and now, it also allows me to connect with what the past year has been and it also helps with the fear going forward.

      Thank you as well for being on the path with me.. I am blessed for that 🙂 have a great thanksgiving

  • Gel

    November 27, 2013 at 12:46 PM

    I love these lines:

    “I just made a conscious effort to really be present in this very moment and it has allowed me to really be open and connected. if I allow myself to find connection in the “here and now” it also allows me to heal what is behind me, and not fear what is in front of me”

    Yes! I can really relate to this too just now. I’m learning that in order to be in the here and now, I have to have some safety and comfort in order to be able to also stand the difficult stuff if it comes up too.

    It sounds like you have that kind of safety and connection with your T. So it gives you the strength to face what comes up in the here and now. (?)

    Blessings to you on this Thanksgiving holiday. I hope you enjoy and savor the time with your family. And I hope you feel the satisfaction for all that you’ve accomplished this year.


    1. KarenBeth

      November 27, 2013 at 12:59 PM

      Thank you Gel … yes you are right. I just noticed Monday and Tuesday that if I just sat in session and felt what I felt in the moment, and connected to him right in the room, it allowed me to be more open, and when I am more open, he also leans in more which makes me lean in more.

      I am the type of person that feeds off other people’s energy, so if someone else leans in, I am more connected to that.

      Thank you for your response .. we will all get through this together 🙂


  • RisingSong

    November 28, 2013 at 1:09 AM

    I wish you peace as you return to confession and to Mass. As I think of you, a favorite song comes to mind. It is a song about returning to a God who has been waiting for you all along…who has never left you.

    “Come back to me with all your heart.
    Don’t let fear keep us apart.
    Trees do bend, though straight and tall
    so must we, to other’s call.

    Long have I waited for your coming,
    home to me and living, deeply our new lives.”

    (from Hosea, Gregory Norbert)

    1. KarenBeth

      November 28, 2013 at 9:20 AM

      AWESOME Rising.. I LOVE it. those lyrics are awesome! thank you for that 🙂

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